POSTS FROM LAST VERSION @ ENVY.NU

.o0 6.25.01 0o.

Oh my Lord. I believe this site almost died. Well, anyway, I have tons to say. I just went to Camp Glisson, and that place rocked the free world. I always have fun there. I say two guys,Lance & Alex, that I knew from three years ago. The week progress really well, but soon I had to like someone, ya know?*grins* I think I liked Lance. But this love is different... I've liked guys way more than I did Lance before. The kind of love where you have to be w/ them 24/7, see them, talk to them, touch them, all the time. Lust, in other words. But this was different. True, I knew I loved Lance, but it was a deep kind of love. And now that I won't see him at least for a year, I'm not freaking out. I have plenty of ways to contact him (AIM, e-mail, snail-mail), but I still love him. But he does not love me @ all. He told me I was like hi best "girl-friend", and that I would always be. In other words, I'm only a friend to him. It makes me sad; always does when you like someone and they don't like you back; but I trust God. I know that if he's the guys I'm supposed to live my life w/, that God will guide us together. It also helps me w/ my suffering, knowing that God loves me, no matter what. Even if Lance doesn't.*smile* So for the past three days, I've prayed a lot for me, my friends, and everyone @ camp; that their sufferings will be comforted by God; because everyone misses their friends @ camp once they leave. Well, it's time to go shopping for Scooby-Doo Stationary!*grins* I gotta write all my camp friends! More later!...I promise!*grins*
~Caleigh-chan

.o0 5.11.01 0o.

Ha! I'm doing better at keeping this going.*grin* Nothing much new website wise, so I'll get to the good stuff.*grin* Guess what... I'm in love again. Spencer Estes is a boy in orchestra class. I ment him last term when we had French together. I regonized him from Orchestra (I didn't know him well then), and I decided that by the end of this term, that I would make him smile and laugh. After French was over, I could of smacked myslef silly. Not only did I make him smile, he fell in love with me! He asked me out in March. I said no, because he was too good of a friend, and I wasn't ready for it to be that way between me and him. But now in May... and maybe late April too, I've been drawn closer and closer to him. Maybe because he's still sweet to me even though I turned him down; I don't know. All I know is that I like him again. I wrote a poem; like anyone would want to read it, but here it is anyway. I suck at poems.*grin*

They say 'What goes around comes around'

Well, you're in my heart again.

I don't know why things always seem to stay

Even when we can make it apart.

Why not before? We were too good of friends;

But you were already dedicated to me.

And now it seems you've moved on

What can I do to make you see?

Evene through all the compition, love will still live on.

So if this is really it, why is there any doubt?

If were are really in love, true love, again

Thans there really is nothing to worry about.

They say 'What goes around comes around'

And I can assure you that's all true;

And even with all the months apart...

...I'm stil in love with you.

Copyright C.M.A. May '01

It's nice, no?*grin* Not too bad. Wondering what I ment by compition? Well, there's a girl named Sara Boso, and she's in orchestra too. I heard from my friend that she likes Spencer too!*grrs* Me and Molly Crumpler made up this saying for her (and a friend of Molly's who's doing the same thing);'Get your own life. Get your own man.' Kawaii. ne?*grin* Anyway, that theory is not proven yet, but we're saving a spot for Sara on the bench.*grin* I think Spencer likes me better, cause he's shown no signs of liking Sara, and check what he wrote in my yearbook today: 'Love ya much, call me often. Spencer Estes (770)513-9087' I about died! His number!*giggle* Now did miss Sara get his number?*grins*I dun think so! And you know what's really funny? Is that the same thing happened last year w/ another boy in orchestra! He gave me his # and not to Sara! I think she STILL might me mad at me for that!*grimace* Well, anywho, he moved (lucky him) and still calls me often. He liked me better than Sara!*taunts and grins* Well, this entry is getting too long. Molly's gonna come over soon, so I'm gonna stop.*smile* More later! Ja ne!

~Caleigh-chan

.o0 5.07.01 0o.

Sorry for the late entry, but the real reason is that there's nothing to really talk about. I mean, I have no crushes whatsoever at all! At my school, church, neighborhood or anything! I guess this is a sign from God to pay more attention to my priorities... like schoolwork, my friends & family, and my faithwalk. Yeah, I guess so. Besides, this is my last year at Creekland, 'cause I'll be going to Hebren(SP) for 8th grade on up if I like it. It's a private Christian school, so I have my high hopes.*grin* As for school, I have a huge and completely stupid Math project due next week, and I hate it. I hate my teacher for that matter. Liz A. and I have this thing where if we don't like them, they can just go 'Sit on a Bench'. This came from when Liz A. was babysitting this little boy. He comes up to her and says 'Ya wanna go sit on the bench?' And she thought he said 'bitch' instead of 'bench'. She goes 'What??' and he repeated slower and she understood. So from now on, when we feel like our teacher's being a bitch, we tell her to sit on a bench. They never get it.*grin* Speaking of teachers, Mrs. Davis, my Language Arts teacher, got me in trouble last Tuesday for my shorts being too short! On a field trip day too! Grr! She has a BIG spot on the bench at the moment!*evil grin* As for the field trip, our Math class went to the mall for our stupid project *double grr* but we had fun anyway. My group, which consisted of Jordan Cooper, Lauren Overstreet, and Linda Shin, had to go to 30 diff. stores to listen to what music they were playing. They were done pretty soon, so we got free shopping time.*grin* It was tons of fun. For the shopping, and later the IMAX movie, we teamed up w/ this group of boys; Brian Witrick, Adam 'Skippy' Chelton, Jimmie Mucha, and Micheal Chaay. All of those guys were completely crazy and fun that day. Jimmie went w/ me and bought a Build-a-Bear, Brian still likes me from when we went out earlier this year, and Skippy and Micheal went into Victoria Secret and asked for bags!*falls off chair laughing* It was an awesome day, minus the shorts ordeal. *sighs, and looks back an entry* It's longer than the last one! And I thought I had nothing to say.*grin* Oh well. I have to sleep now. Need rest....*yawns*. More later guys!

~Caleigh-chan

.o0 4.28.01 0o.

Okay, first real entry. To start with, I am furious at Austin. Austin is a guy in my class I just met this year. He's funny, friendly, and baby-cute. Very frank too *inside joke*. Well, my other friend Jonathan, liked this girl named Susan for a long time. Jonathan is taller than me, and a complete idiot. But we all love him.*grin* Susan is the nice pretty brunette who I didn't know very well until after this whole ordeal. Anyway, back to the story. He liked for a long time and we always made fun of him for his 'obsession'. On our team feild trip Austin coughed up something suprising; He liked Susan! And, as it turned out, she liked him too, and so they went out. Now, you can just imagine how Jonathan reacted. He just blew. Him and Austin were fighting for at least two weeks. It finally ended and they were best friends again, because Jonathan liked me. Well, as time flows, Austin got over Susan, and wanted to break up with her so he could ask Jera out. (Definition of Jera: Stuck-up, so called 'Popular' Girl who everyon says is hot buts she's not.) Turns out Jera was going out with someone already and Austin had broken up with Susan too. (Which, by the way, was the most loserish break-up I've ever seen). So Austin was single for good again. Now, just two days ago, he tells me he likes Susan again! Grrr! So I go and talk to Susan, and she says she likes T.J. Apilado. T.J. is a midget boy w/ blond dyed spikes on his head, an awesome personality, and an adorable lisp. Now I cannot blame Susan for liking T.J., and they had gone out earlier this year. So I went and talked to T.J. (lots of running around involved here!) and he said that he loved Susan really bad. On a scale of 1 to 10, he loved her as a 50, and he said she loved him the same. And when I told him that Austin likes Susan again, he said he wan't gonna give her up this time.*grin* So back to Austin *whew* and tell him what T.J. said. So he blows and tells me to mid my own business!! Can you believe that? He tells me in the first place, and gets mad when I get told things? I could scream...well, anyway, now he's all acting stupid and stuff around me. The truth is, I kinda like Austin anyway. Well, all for now; I gotta cool off.*grin* Ja ne!

~Caleigh-chan

.o0 4.27.01 0o.

Here's how this will work. I'm gonna talk about what I want, and how I want to say it, so you profanity-phobia watch it. I get mad too ya know. I will mention people who are not from the net mostly, and will explain what I know about this person before continuing the story (so to speak). So if you don't know who I'm talking about, go back a few entries and read. I'm not going to talk about anything now, because I'm too busy trying to get this site working to type that much.*smile* So all Be well, okies?*grin* I can try to be Shinzui all I want, but I'm me! Write (or type) later!
~Caleigh-chan